December 28, 2010

A Whole Lotta Nothin'

Vacation is lovely, isn't it? I tell you, I've watched enough Lost to suit me for...well... all of my vacation. It's great. (By the way, I can't say in good conscience that I enjoy that show. It scares me. But I somehow keep coming back...?)

Anyway, this morning I posted a facebook status that I had a whole day of nothing planned... and I should just say that isn't true. I documented my day on camera to prove it. Not video though. Ew. :)

The first thing on my to-do list was to vacuum my floor... this was no easy task, however, as I had to actually move a lot of junk that was ON the floor so I could vacuum. And may I just say right now that central vac and I don't get along so well. This may be why I never vacuum. :P Anyway. I got it done eventually.

Second, I cleaned 3/4 of the bathrooms in my house. And I didn't feel the least bit guilty for not cleaning the fourth bathroom. My plan after that was to work out, but by the time I finished the bathrooms I was so tired and chemicalized that I just wanted a shower. ("Isn't that what they call irony?" "No, irony is you asking what it means everytime you say it.") So. I took a long, lovely shower. And then I laid on my bed for awhile and watched TV in my clean room. It was nice. :)

After my mom got home from work I helped her put away groceries and get ready for dinner. I can't remember what we ate. Oh yes, it was scrambled eggs and hashbrowns and pumpkin bread from the Voigtlanders. Some of us had toast, but not I. Too bad. I love toast. :(

Anywhom, after dinner, I began to build a splendid cheesecake, and this is where the pictures really get good! The cheesecake is called Heavenly Cheesecake and the recipe is available here. I know Megan will probably want to try it? ;)

Well. I started out by being awesome at guessing and crushing up some Oreo cookies. The recipe calls for a cup and a half of crushed chocolate cookies and the Oreos were fine but because they are so moist due to the cream filling, they were hard to crush. It took an exact row of Oreos to get a cup and a half, but in the future I would use more because it ended up not being enough to coat the sides of the pan. I just coated the bottom. Anywhom. These are my crushed Oreos, which look surprisingly like the countertop, hmm? :)

Next I put them in the pan. I took a photo, but it's surprisingly similar to the one I just posted, so I'll leave that out for now. Oh yeah and I forgot to mention the butter. heavenly stuff. :) So, after I got the yummy crust into the pan, I refrigerated it whilst I went about other things. Such as the milk and gelatin. Now bear with me. I have never made a cheesecake before. For my first attempt, I think I did alright.

The next step was to put the milk in the pan and sprinkle the gelatin on top and let it sit for exactly one minute. I was hyper from tea and talking to my mom so I am not sure how accurate I was on my "one minute" guesstimations. Anyway, the milk turned wrinkly so that was fun. Then I went over and cooked it on low heat for a LONG time and while that was cooking, I cut up 4 of the 5 milky way bars!!! :) that was actually probably the most fun.

So THEN after I cooked the milk and gelatin for awhile, I got to put the milky way chunks in the milk and cook it 'til it melted. and THIS took a long time. It's a good thing I was listening to Owl City or I would have been really bored. :)

After this was the fun part! I beat the delicious milk mixture (and I did taste it, by the way. it tasted like expensive, gourmet hot chocolate) with a lot of cream cheese and THEN I ADDED WHIPPING CREAM and ahhhhhhhhh it became heavenly!!! SO HERE is the finished product. *trumpet*

So... the end. that was my nothing.

New Favorite Song!

Corner of Your Heart -- Ingrid Michaelson

There's a corner of your heart just for me
There's a corner of your heart just for me
I will pack my bags just to stay in the corner of your heart

There is room beneath your bed for me
There is room beneath your bed just for me
I will leave this town just to sleep underneath your bed
Just to sleep underneath your bed

There's one minute of your day
There's one minute of your day
I will leave this man just to occupy one minute of your day
Just to occupy one minute of your day
Just to sleep underneath your bed
Just to stay in the corner of your heart. 

December 22, 2010

I see our love in 3-D.

This is the book I'm going to read over Christmas break: Airs Above the Ground by Mary Stewart. I've raved a lot about Mary, I know, and I have four or five of her delicious murder romances on my shelf. I've only read The Moon-Spinners all the way through (twice). I feel like a hypocrite, always saying how much I love Mary Stewart when I've only finished one of her books. Shame on me. So far, though, I can honestly say I love her humorous perspective. And in my defense, I've started Airs Above the Ground one or two times before, and had to stop - not out of boredom, but other things came up.. that, and I'm just not a big reader. I wish I was. Anyways, this is the time when this book is going to get read. :)

I had my last final today, and I was quite angry about having to go to school on December 22. Once I got there, though, I was delighted to find that I had access to almost any parking spot I desired... ohhhh the simple joys of life...

My mom just found out today that since she works for the hospital now, she gets a discounted membership to the Summit--and there are some stipulations that count me as "family" which means I get the discount, too. The first is children 18 or younger (hey, that's me!) and the second is children that have graduated high school (that's also me...) that are under 25 (hmmm), and are taking 12+ college credits (well, there ya go!). So, I'm excited now. I hope I turn into one of those people that spend like two hours at the gym everyday because they are workout addicts. Actually, I don't really hope that. I just want to be thin.

This is something new I'm trying on my face.... Hard Candy blush. It's caught my eye the last few times I've been makeup shopping because a lot of the products are sparkly and shimmery... and we probably all know how much Coley loves glitter. So I thought I'd give it a go. I bought blush and some light eyeshadow (though I don't wear shadow much... more just liner and mascara). I've only used NYC and Arbonne as far as blush goes, so if this treats my little face well, I think we'll have a makeup love story on our hands. And remember how I used to hate Stiletto eyeliner? Well, give it a chance... because I found myself buying another tube of it today. *sigh* :) 
Okay everyone. You better have a happy Christmas. And if you happen to see me in a store, PLEASE don't let it get awkward... because I will yell your name happily and if you don't hear me... I'll stand there like an idiot. So be nice and say hello. :) 

Merry Christmas! 

December 18, 2010

stepping out to see that you're really worth more

I've been modcloth-ing again... (thanks for inspiring me, Megan :P) Aren't these darling?!

Modern Fairytale
Halter of Fame: 
(I love this next one... and it's named the "Young Composer Dress", which strikes a chord [haha, get it?] in my heart...)
Spontaneous Plans: I would wear this everyday!! In a different color. *sheepish*
Make a Swish:
Cherry Valence: I've always loved this dress... but I don't know where on earth I would wear it.
And finally, the Frankly, I Don't Give a Dress ;)

have a lov-a-ly weekend, everyone! hugs! 

EDIT: I browsed the whole website looking for this one. Found it on the last page. It's my favorite -- if I owned this dress, I would have worn it in Ezekiel. It's called, Who's That Girl?

December 17, 2010

so I'm taking a rainbow up to the 5th floor...

Marty said something to me tonight.

It was as we were waiting backstage to go on for the very last scene/curtain call... Krista was singing the reprise of "A Little More Christmas" and I was quietly singing along.

"You're everyone's understudy," Marty winked.

She meant it as a compliment and I took it that way. But when I thought about it, I realized... I really am everyone's undestudy.

And I got a little sad.

But that's okay, because every understudy eventually gets the chance to have the spotlight. And I'm just singing while I wait. ;)

December 14, 2010

confession time!

Confession: I don't always check my answers in the original equation.

Confession: I skipped pilates this week because of finals.

Confession: today in my head, I heard the quote, "a thing of beauty is a joy forever"... and I thought, "a thing of beauty is a joy as long as it stays beautiful." I'm not sure how accurate this is, or if I'm just feeling pessimistic.

Confession: I did not use documentation on my last essay. Reason? Laziness.

Confession: Even if I never ever EVER wear something, it's still hard to get rid of it.

Confession: I don't write everything in my journal.

Confession: I still sleep with my pink bunny.

Confession: Sometimes I look at people and ask the Lord why He didn't make me beautiful.

Confession: I wear pajamas when I teach piano, occasionally. Like today.

December 12, 2010

we make too much sense to foolishly pass it by

Dear blogworld,
I have been very stressed lately about piano lessons, the play, and *ugh* finals. This morning during church I was paging through my little pink NLT Bible and just jotting down every verse I found that seemed relevant to me at the moment. I ended up filling about 5 pages in my little journal, and I'd like to share the verses I found in case you are feeling overwhelmed and stressed out, too. =]

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare about the LORD: He alone is my refugre, my place of safety; He is my God, and I trust Him. -Psalm 91:1-2

Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you. -I Peter 5:7

Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from God rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace. - Colossians 3:14-15

The LORD Himself will fight for you. Just stay calm. - Exodus 14:14

The eternal God is your refuge, and His everlasting arms are under you. He drives out the enemy before you, He cries out, "Destroy them!" - Deuteronomy 33:27

What good is it, dear brothers and sisters, if you say you have faith but don't show it by your actions? Can that kind of faith save anyone? - James 2:14

So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold - though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world. - I Peter 1:6-7

She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. - Proverbs 31: 25

Finishing is better than starting. Patience is better than pride. - Ecclesiastes 7:8

Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. - Isaiah 43:2

But forget all that - it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. - Isaiah 43:18-19

No, O people, the LORD has told you what is good, and this is what He requires of you: to do what is right, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God. - Micah 6:8

If any of you wants to be My follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow Me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for My sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? - Matthew 16: 23-26

...Have mercy on us and help us, if you can. "What do you mean, 'if I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes." The father instantly cried out, "I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!" - Matthew 9:22b-24

We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. - Romans 5:3

For everything comes from Him and exists by His power and is intended for His glory. All glory to Him forever! Amen. - Romans 11:36

and my favorite... But whatever I am now, it is all because God poured out His special favor on me. :) - 1 Corinthians 15:10a (smiley face added)

I have entered into a whole new realm of faith, I think. I like it.

December 2, 2010


I don't think you see what I see when you look at me
I see flaws and imperfections, but you see beauty
You see me as a canvas, I can become anything
So don't ask why I try to fit in a mold
When I have my own wings.

I hope to grow beautiful someday
I hope to grow beautiful someday
I hope to grow beautiful someday
I hope to grow beautiful someday

I don't think I see what you see when I look in the mirror
You see a tender heart but I see weird.
You see me as a canvas, I can become anything
Don't ask why I want to be heard,
But I'm afraid to sing...

I hope to grow beautiful someday
I hope to grow beautiful someday
I hope to grow beautiful someday
I hope to grow beautiful someday

Everything is a work in progress. 

Edit: due to some expressed confusion on the part of a select few of you, yes, I wrote this song. It is my own. =] 

November 24, 2010

they say we can't make it; at least we gotta try!

Thanksgiving gets overlooked, don't you think?
I mean, we had snow by November 12. All the stores have put up Christmas decorations and are even playing that annoying Christmas music that all sounds the same. Christmas gifts are being pushed, pushed, pushed upon us.

But I like Thanksgiving.
I like little cartoon turkeys and I like fall decorations. I like leaves and cornucopias and pumpkins and hayrides. Fall is my favorite season. I love apple cider with caramel and cinnamon. I love pumpkin spice lattes and rosy cheeks and brisk wind that makes you glow like a glossy apple.

It seems like nobody even cares about Thanksgiving anymore. Heck, as soon as the first snow falls, screw everything but Christmas! (In all fairness, Christmas is another distorted holiday where we get to focus on ourselves.)

In my humble opinion, I think everyday should be Thanksgiving. Not so much in the feasting and the hanging out with friends... just in realizing all we have. Simply acknowledge it. Take your eyes off your small self for a moment, and look at what all the Lord has given. Just bask in it. Be grateful. Thank Him. Treat everyday like Thanksgiving.

So, I'm-a cheat: on Thanksgiving EVE (gasp) I'm gonna tell you what I'm thankful for... be it small or big. And tomorrow I'm going to make another list. And the day after. And the day after. Until it just comes so naturally to me that I don't even have to think about it.
1. I'm soo thankful for two parents that love the Lord and love each other, and love me--even though I'm just a big mess.
2. I'm thankful to be a part of the Christmas Post this year. Every time I go to practice I am blessed even more than the time before. I never knew being part of a theatre production could be this awesome.
3. I'm thankful for great friends that are encouraging and uplifting and love me no matter what. Along the same lines, I'm thankful for not-so-great friends, because they remind me how great the great ones really are.
4. I'm thankful for little Sarah, who doesn't run TOO well but she gets me to school and home everyday. And she has a nice radio. :)
5. I'm thankful for BSF--my discussion group could not be more awesome.
6. I'm thankful for my piano students!
7. I'm defffffinitely thankful for tea! =]
8. I'm thankful for that little nudge I get from my conscience when I want to say something I shouldn't. Sometimes I don't listen and say it anyway, and I regret it. I may even be thankful for that, cuz it helps me the next time.
9. I'm thankful for journaling, cuz I'd be a weird, messed-up little knot of emotions without that release!
10. I'm thankful for a merciful God who listens to and answers my feeble prayers. I am so small. Who am I, that He is mindful of me? <3

10 seems like a nice place to stop for this post, but I want to never cease being grateful.

"Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift!" --2 Corinthians 6:15

November 20, 2010

I've been tagged!

I was tagged by Lex, and I just so happen to love this kind of thing! Depending on how well you know me, you may already know that I'm a huge fan of timewasters. In fact, my open math book is in front of me, but THIS is more fun. Would that I could always do creative and wonderful things instead of homework. Bah. Life would be better my way.

1. What are your favorite things about the Christmas season?
Sometimes Christmas means that my whole family is together. I really enjoy that. And of course, we have our eggnog and tree decorating traditions, but pretty much everyone has outgrown that except for my mom and me. It's ok, I don't mind. We're just extra awesome together. I love the snuggly feeling you get on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, too... last year I was soooo so so so sick on Christmas Day. It was awful.

2. What all are you thankful for?
I feel dumb after reading Lex's answers to this question about Shakespeare's Lady and all the other awesomeness going on in her life. I'm really bad at being grateful... I tend to gripe and moan about how awful EVERYTHING is, but really -- I'm grateful that my grades are ok, that my car runs (most of the time), and for The Christmas Post. I may add to this question as I go. 

3. What are you doing for your next birthday?
I just had a birthday and it wasn't that special. I doubt my next one will be anything great either. 

4. What is your favorite book?
The Moon-Spinners. Sentimental reasons. If I'd picked this book up off a shelf and read it, it wouldn't mean half as much to me as the story that my sister-in-law and I read together (before she was my sister!). Special, special memories. Baskin-Robbins goes along those lines, too :) And we can't forget the time I was riding with her and all of a sudden opened her car door and threw up. See, The Moon-Spinners makes me think of all this. :) 

5. What’s a movie that you wouldn’t mind watching over and over again?
This is a hard question. I have a lot of favorites. Probably any number of musicals though... I'm going to watch Meet Me in St. Louis one of these days. Megan got that bamboo tree song stuck in my head the other day. "if you like-a me like I like-a you and we like-a both the same..." 

6. What is your main goal/dream in life?
I don't know that I have a MAIN goal (and the word dream is so much better), but more like a bunch of little to-do's on my life's list. Owl City says it best: "my dreams are bursting at the seams." I don't really like to share my life to-do's but here's a sneak peak: throw a message in a bottle out to sea, write a musical, write a lullaby, learn to play guitar, adopt a pet. Cool stuff like that. :)

7. What song are you listening to/have you listened to recently?
Every day for the past 9 days I have listened to Ingrid Michaelson's album, Everybody, on the way to school and back. I don't usually skip songs, just let them play. My favorites are Soldier, Everybody, The Mountain and the Sea, Sort Of (see two posts ago), Locked Up, and Maybe. siiiigh. love Ingrid. Today I listened to her Be OK album and that just melted my heart too! Owl City as well. Like I said, if you know me, you know music is a huge staple of my life. A big, pink, sparkly, unremovable staple. 

8. What are you looking forward to at the moment?
Another difficult question that actually requires some thought on my part. The first thing that comes to mind is, I'm looking forward to when I have enough money for a new pair of jeans. There are Silvers skinny jeans at maurice's, and I'm AVOIDING trying them on because I know I will fall in love and it will be a one-way relationship and it's just not good. The second thing that comes to mind is finishing up the Christmas Post--we're getting there!! And the last thing I'm looking forward to is Christmas break :) every day brings me a little bit closer to being done with my math class!!!! 

Tag, you’re it!
Megan at the Conglomerated Chronicles of Megan
Hannah at Hannah's Happy Hovel
Rena at Rena Jones
Jonathan at Jonathan's Ramblings

November 18, 2010


November 10, 2010

Sort Of

good song by Ingrid Michaelson :)

Baby, you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart
And baby, you've got the sort of face to start this old heart
But your eyes are warning me this early morning
That my love's too big for you, my love

Baby, you've got the sort of laugh that waters me
And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me.
I find you stunning but you are running me down
My love's too big for you, my love
My love's too big for you, my love

And if I was stronger, then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger, then I would leave this show
And if I was stronger, then I would up and go
But here I am, and here we go again.

Baby, you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales
That your sort of mouth just will not say, the truth impales
You don't need me, but you won't leave me.
My love's too big for you, my love
Oh, my love's too big for you, my love

And if I was stronger, then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger, then I would leave this show
And if I was stronger, then I would up and go
But here I am, and here we go again.

Tell me what to do to take away the you
Take away the you, take away the you
Take away the you... 

November 4, 2010

my heart's like a leaf on the wind catchin' rides.

Who knew these little monsters were busy spinning nastyness in our house? My mom was mortified that I wanted to take a picture for my blog, and she wants everyone to know that as soon as I got the picture she destroyed the web. Anyway I thought the picture turned out surprisingly clear. Now, little camera, why won't you take clear photos my outfits?!

In the happy news of the day, I got a 96% on my math test, a smiley face on the second page, and "Nice!" written across the top. This raised my cumulative grade to almost a B. It's the kind of grade I've been wanting all along. Makes me think, well, great, the semester is half over and I'm just starting to get the hang of this stuff... Oh well, I guess. One of my favorite quotes is on my facebook profile: "Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently." --Henry Ford (However, I never hoped to apply it to math. Oh well. I'm getting there and that's what's important.)

In the other happy news of the day... it's Thursday... and here's my outfit... (I might actually manage a blog post every single day this month? Just a thought.)

Ooh, and more happy news of the day! I can type faster than Elliot. :D Judging by my calculations, my average speed is about 95 wpm... at least from the three times we raced. I think that was adrenaline or something though cuz I don't feel like I type that fast. :D

Here's my outfit for today. It's hard to see the graphics on the tee but it's basically gray with a skeleton key print. I didn't think it was overkill to wear it with my skeleton key necklace. And you should be sooo glad I didn't include my face this time. Disastrous morning (but I fixed it eventually!).

For the sad news of the day, I'm not really looking forward to finding out my grade on the in-class essay...... :P

November 3, 2010

gravity they defy

Day 3! I love this top. It's great for adding bright colors to your day, your outfit, your life. And on that note it's now going to the back of my closet and tomorrow I'll have another interesting something! =]

November 2, 2010

Your Words [are] Like Wings!

My week is half done.
Three tests are over. One to go, and an in-class essay.
Three piano lessons are done.
Three more on Thursday.
Two play practices over.
Three to go. (Whoa. Three.)

Can I just say, I revel in my fuzzy pajamas, netflix, tea, and (ahhh!) bed. I have included a bonus photo of my fuzzy pants in this post, just you can be jealous of how comfortable I look (and feel). If you feel like investing in a pair of fuzzy pants, I recommend it. These were $10 at wal-mart, in fact my mom got a pair too! :) The text on mine says something about wishing on a star... I'm not sure; it's kind of hard to read.

THEN the whiz-bang-pow of the day: my outfit. Thanks to JJ for helping me plan this outfit, although the original plan included a purple dress. My dress just looked way too fancy so I kept with the purple theme and wore a skirt. It's hard to see but I'm wearing sparkle tights with black knee socks. It felt very chic and great for a fall day. That's also one of my favorite necklaces :)
     so I can't wear this shirt again this month - but I CAN use it as a long-sleeve layering piece, under another shirt.

Confession Time!

Confession: I did NOT fudge on making my bed this morning.
Confession: I did maybe fudge a little on jogging.
Confession: I used my snooze button for the first time EVER and had a weird dream. I might not use it again.
Confession: I straightened my hair today for the first time in 4 (or maybe 5) days. Felt good!

Do you have any confessions? Leftover halloween candy could be a big one... haha =]

November 1, 2010

An Exercise in Appreciating What I Have....

Last week I counted my shirts. I have 27 short sleeved shirts alone! That's not to mention long-sleeves and hoodies! So, I thought, hey, November is coming up. November also has 30 days. And this idea occured to me that I could make a blog project of sorts... since I have to do it if I post it on my blog, see. =]

Anyway, the project is, I'm not going to wear the same shirt twice in the month of November. However, this does not include tank tops, since most of what I own requires a tank top for the sake of modesty or just looks better with a tank top, and I own like 7. Or 8. I'm not sure, I lost count.

it was quite an ordeal.
So the purpose of this project is for me to see all the things I really do have, and in so doing, not focus so much on what I don't have. Also it's a way to be creative with the clothes I own! I won't always have money to buy whatever strikes my fancy (although, as I type, maurice's is having a 20% sale on their outerwear, and I'm exercising extreme self-control...), so this is good practice in wearing what sometimes maybe I don't really want to wear because I liked it when I bought it but now it's blah. Maybe I'm going too far into this.

In other news, I'm too tired to straighten my hair this morning, and I woke up cold and grumpy. I'm drinking some peach tea and I can't wait for today to be over!! We have a quiz/test in music theory and I'm not looking forward to it. As Millie says, I should go into it with the attitude, "if I'm going to fail this, I'm going to fail it WITH PRIDE!" I honestly don't think I'll fail, but I certainly don't feel prepared.

Also happening today is a midterm - EEK - in World Music. I'm giving my presentation today on the music of Hawaii. I actually kinda had fun working on the powerpoint, but I am a little nervous. I'm just anxious for today to end!

And finally, the sad news of the hour, I don't get to go to BSF tonight because I have a play practice I need to go to. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love play practice... but BSF is like my redemption from the awful Mondays in my life. :( oh well. If it all works out, my mom and I will still get to ride home together, which is another Monday blessing.

Finally found one! This is the torso of an exhausted girl. :P
It's real life, people.  
And now I'm off to study a little bit (for approximately 45 minutes) until I have to get ready to leave - for Pilates. yayyyy. I never feel like doing Pilates haha!

Confession: I fudged on making my bed this morning.

P.S., well so much for studying when it took me 20 minutes to find a shirt I wanted to wear! This challenge is gonna be, well, challenging. I'll upload a photo tonight when I get home... I can't find the camera right now. Hope everyone's Monday is at least decent.

What are you doing to appreciate what you have?

October 28, 2010

10 Reasons Why Today Was a Great Day

10. I was wearing a new, soft, warm Aeropostale hoodie.

9. I wasn't stressed about homework this morning.

8. David Crowder in my CD player.

7. I feel skinny AND strong. :D

6. It's Thursday, so no more classes until Monday.

5. I got enough sleep last night.

4. Millie brought a latte to writing class and gave it to me. Just because. =]

3. I actually enjoyed my math class for the first time EVER.

2. My mom got me a pocket surprise: strawberry shortcake gum. It's very Willy Wonka-ish.

1. I am loved.

How was your day? 

October 25, 2010

you'll believe you can fly

It's been such a full weekend, but I'm finally home!!

On Thursday I woke up at 5 AM so I could shower and give my hair time to dry before Monica picked us up and took us to the train station. I had a smoothie for breakfast like I sometimes do and picked out a really cute travel outfit (of which I was going to take a picture, but then I found out/realized/remembered that my mom took the camera to North Dakota with her on Sunday! What a waste! haha) The train was on time and we boarded with no hassles - at first we couldn't sit together so I sat with a talkative old lady for the first few minutes. She was going to Minot for her brother's funeral and she said they didn't really have deer where she was from. This was a foreign concept to me. When the conductor came through, he found a spot for my brother and I to sit together. It was a long trip - we had a bunch of delays due to freight trains that needed to get through, a freight train whose engine stalled, and caution because of previous derailments. Because of these delays, we arrived in Minot at about 12:37(ish) central time. We figure the train was roughly 3 hours late. It was kind of miserable, if only for the reason that we weren't prepared to be three hours late.

Friday, my mom took me shopping at Dakota Square Mall. I couldn't remember if they had a Hollister or not (they don't, by the way. Remind me later.) or if they had an Abercrombie (which they also don't). Those are really the only preppy big-cityish stores where I like to shop, but that day we meandered into Aeropostale and they happened to be having a fabulous sale! (Imagine that.) I bought a pullover hoodie and a T-shirt for fun. That probably means I'll never wear it but just knowing it's in my closet makes me happy. We also hit up the maurice's there: you may remember my post where I put together an outfit. Well, I bought that shirt, and I tried on the skirt. It was in my size, and on sale, but it was.. shall we say.. less than flattering. Oh well. I stocked up on burnouts and bought a lovely pair of earrings.

Long day today! I forgot my laptop, so I couldn't really work on anything super important. After class I met my teacher's new puppy, Gustave. He's a Jack Russel terrier and extremely friendly. I liked him. BSF was great, as always - I love my group and my discussion leader. When I got home I did my in-class essay (out of class) and worked on my math homework. Now I'm thinking sleep is in order! Goodnight, cyber world. (have you bought any fun clothes lately? Or traveled anywhere more exciting than ND?)

October 19, 2010

step into my thoughts.

    Long-sleeve burnouts are a fall must!!! I only have a white one and a black one. Next time I go shopping I want to expand my collection of colors. The reason I say this is because I like to wear T-shirts in the winter, with long sleeves underneath (I don't really wear T-shirts any other time). And the colorful burnouts make it so much more interesting and fun!! I love the drama of this top. The color would make the most boring outfit fun and sassy! It would also be cute with a black tank top underneath and a big necklace. I must say, I love fall fashion. I'm trying to find colors I wouldn't normally choose. Since I have a lot of different colors of crinkle camis, I usually try to stay basic with the overshirt, but I think I can get a little exciting this year =] I've included a few more images I like as well. My black and white ones are getting worn out, too, so I want those colors - in the same style as the pink!
     Well now that I've had my little fashion frolic for the day, it's probably time to start getting productive. I have to finish my homework by 4:00 today - and that includes working out, showering, getting dressed, and eating at some point. I don't have a ton, I just need to stay focused and alert! (No coffee, though. I'm getting twisted bliss later.) First thing on the agenda is my BSF homework! Haha, I'm sorry for blathering. This is the exact same thing I do in my journal. I talk about all the stuff I need to get done. I prioritize. It must help me focus, I think, and it lays it all out on paper before me instead of little annoying butterflies that flit around my head and land on me only when I'm NOT trying to catch them. Stupid butterflies.

It makes me think of Anna Nalick's song, "2 AM (Breathe)" where she says, "2 AM and I'm still awake writing a song/If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to." I have been listening to Anna Nalick a lot lately. She's my company as I drive to school and back. She understands what it feels like to watch someone you love fall in love with someone else. She knows what it feels like to want to "hide my head here in this paper bag, 'cause if I can't see you, then you can't see me." She can relate when I feel like everyone only wants to change me. Don't bother wasting your time. "In the Rough" contains hope that maybe someday the ordinary and unexciting girls of the world will fall in love. Love will find me in the rough. *contented sigh*

I need to start with math. I have 30 problems and it's a race against the clock. =\ I hate math, I hate problems, I hate racing! I hate everything about that! The only thing that makes it even a little bit better is that fact that I'm in my fuzzy pajamas, and I'm also in bed. I may have to get out, though. I'm kinda tempted to watch a movie when I'm in bed. =P

I'm gonna end this post with a Dr. Seuss quote. This is how I feel about school.

"Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple." --Dr. Seuss

Have a great Tuesday! Are you doing anything fun today? Have any favorite quotes, Dr. Seuss or otherwise?

October 15, 2010

outside my mind is a lost world that lies

I cleaned my room today! What I mean by "cleaned" is I moved the junk around and rather stacked it up, so it looks and feels cleaner than it really is. My desk still needs some work, and my schoolbooks and potential outfits seem to conglomerate in my chair. But I have already forgiven myself for that.
How could you not be happy in a room this pink? and HAPPY? =] Love the Christmas lights.

     This morning I watched The Break-Up Artist (rated PG-13 for Adult Content and Adult Language) on netflix.    
The movie began with a younger version of Britney Brooks on a playground. "Love is eternal, until it ends," we hear the supposedly "older" Britney narrate.
     We then get to watch little Britney rave to her unimpressed friend. "Love is the bestest. Better than recess. I love, love." And of course, up walks Tyler. OOOOOOOOOOOH. *swoon*
     "I'm dumping you. Heard you got cooties."
     WHAT?! And Britney's whole world falls apart as her classmates jeer, "Britney's got cooties! Britney's got cooties!" Britney incredulously turns to her friend. "Love BLOWS!" We are expected to believe this one rejection kills Britney's hopes for love, eternally. The movie switches to present time and we watch a pessimistic Britney helping lovers all over break up with each other by running a business called Splitzville. "It's not you.... it's her/him." The classic line.
      Overall, this movie was... I don't know. Cute? Funny? Stupid, but good for a lazy day? Watch it if you want, but I'd say it's a waste of time.

    Have a great weekend, everyone! Have you seen any good movies lately?

October 11, 2010

set on someone different that I never realized

That was a long, tortured groan!
Last week was horrible. HORRIBLE.
It all started on Monday. (Doesn't it always?) My math teacher assigned 9.1 and 9.2. "Do as many as you can," she said. So I did. I got home at 9:20 and slaved over my math, in the book, until I had to go to bed.
The next day, I found out the work was online.
No one informed me. Apparently I am the only one that doesn't get these memos. I won't bore you with talk of the rest of my week, but let's just say... the worst week I've had so far. It can ONLY get better, I'm sure. :D

Tonight I actually didn't have much homework -- I finished up my literary analysis to be turned in tomorrow (I think it's a piece of crap, but my mom read it and said she would grade it very well. Don't know how much of that is because she's my mother, but it made me feel better), we had a math quiz this morning, so no homework tonight (praise the LORD IN HEAVEN) and then we also took a quiz in world music. So again, no homework. =] I feel like I can breathe now.
The blurry of this photo makes me sad. Especially since my favorite part is my hair, and that's what you can't see... And sorry for the messy bed! Saturday was a stressful day for homework. 

Every girl should have a little black dress in her closet! I have two. 

October 5, 2010

I see life through a new set of eyes.

I feel amazing this morning.
A few days ago, when I was writing in my journal, I thought, man, I'm gonna be 18 in 40 days. And I proceeded to write a bunch of ways that I wanted to become better, overall, before my 18th birthday. I'm 5 days in to my "40 Day Challenge" as I like to call it, and I just. Feel. Good. I broke my goals down into three sections: Body, Mind and Soul.

The first thing I did was write down a workout schedule. I already have Pilates on Mondays and Wednesdays, so that's taken care of, but I decided if I work out at home when I don't have Pilates, I will feel much better, and I will also be stronger and able to work harder in the Pilates class itself. Tuesdays I jog (on the treadmill if it's cold) and Thursdays I do a light workout DVD (such as Jennifer Galardi or Ellen whats-her-name). On Friday I do a hard workout, like Jillian Michaels, and then I get the weekend off.

Second thing was to decide how much water I should be drinking everyday. They say (I still don't know who "they" are...) you should take your weight, divide it by two, and drink that many ounces everyday. I came up with 59 so I rounded up to 60 - a nice, healthy number. Didn't succeed yesterday but on Sunday I did.

Third, I wanted to start doing my BSF homework (hmmm, is it ok to call that homework?) first thing in the morning. Another thing I did this morning. By the time I was done reading the notes and answering the questions, I felt awake enough to jog for 20 minutes (about the length of one episode of Gilligan's Island, hehehe). It's just a good way to start the day and get focused on the Lord right off.

As far as mind goes, I just wanted to remove any distractions that keep me from getting my homework done. The main one would be Facebook, obviously, so I cut way back on that - and the other main one is simply how clean my room stays or not. I cannot focus or even sleep in a messy room. Just another one of my personality quirks. (Last night I actually left my closet door open. I have NO idea how I could have slept.)

So there you have it. If I feel on my 18th birthday the way I feel today, I will be satisfied. =]

my banana berry smoothie with protein powder and yogurt... waiting patiently as I blog! =]

October 3, 2010

out of the dark

Hooray for adorable dresses. This is my favorite dress in my closet! I don't like wearing tights with it, but it was too cold this morning to forgo them. If I hadn't worn tights, I would have worn black classy boots with it =]
Tomorrow is Monday. NOT looking forward to it! Except I am looking forward to BSF. I love my discussion group. They make Mondays bearable for me. I'm really, REALLY not looking forward to my music theory test though... ack, I'm scared. Does that mean it'll all work out? Cuz it seems like when I think a test will go just fine, or I feel prepared, it totally bombs. So if the opposite is true, then if I worry and stress, it'll all work out. (big sigh.)

Have a good week, my friends! =]

October 1, 2010

like a shooting star across my universe

It's a cozy Friday night, I've been in my pajamas almost all day, singing all night, and thinking about the horrors of homework and room cleaning. It's been a good week. I have three random photos and tidbits to share tonight. ^_^

     Don't even bother asking me what the summer of code is. I couldn't tell ya. This is a T-shirt Jason got for free, and it turned out to be women's small. I thiefed it, with permission, (since, yeah, like my 23-year-old brother is gonna wear a women's small T-shirt cuz he can) and he told me maybe I can pick up some cute nerds if I wear it occasionally. It actually is comfy, and I do have T-shirt days every so often.

Hannah spent the night last night and we were having a sweet tooth at 10:30 PM... so we snuck downstairs like little grey, giggly mice, only much bigger, and much less unnerving than the ones in my car, and I made some chocolate pudding. We heated up tortillas in a skillet 'til they were just a little crunchy and then spread them with cream cheese and cinnamon (by the way, don't eat cream cheese plain... I took a bite and, yeah, it's less than appetizing.), and chocolate pudding. When we folded up these "dessert quesadillas" of sorts we put whipped cream on top and then drizzled it with chocolate syrup and white chocolate syrup. I couldn't finish mine (and it had too much pudding in it, as you can kind of see from the photo.), but it was a fun thought and mightily delicious.

Finally, I think this is the biggest carrot I have seen!!! My dad said it was 31"? I'm guessing that included the fluffy green top. And yes, that is from our garden.
And that is my brother holding it. Haha, we are awesome =]

I hope everyone is doing well, and having as much fun with life as I am!!

September 30, 2010

Happy Sixteenth, Millie!

This is Millie
Millie is beautiful.
Millie is sixteen years old today.
I wish I could take awesome pictures of her instead of stealing them from Jenna all the time!
Happy birthday Millie!

I luv u.

photo credits: Millie Voigtlander, Damaris Gemmer, and Jenna Galanti. 

September 29, 2010


This is my favorite photo right now. It was so much fun having the girls there when I got my senior pictures done last year, and I asked Alicia if she would take some photos of me with them and then one of my mom and I. Alicia happily obliged. I can't rave about her photos enough! You can see some more beautiful, artsy shots on her blog here.

Look at Jessica's face as the three of us tromp through the leaves! Her expression is simply priceless. There are no words for how much these girls mean to me. I love them all the way to the moon and back, even more than chocolate chips.

And I also looooooove my mommy =] 
Thank you for these beautiful shots, Alicia (a year late)!! Oh, I should also mention that the photo used in my blog layout is also one of my senior portraits by Alicia. Just in case you couldn't tell that I am wearing the same outfit. haha =] 

September 28, 2010

but You came just in time

My dad has a new friend! Apparently he has a magnetism for canines, or else he's just too nice, but this pup follows him home in the mornings sometimes now. There used to be two other dogs that would follow him home sometimes too - they would lay in our yard ALL DAY long. We didn't feed them or anything, so I'm guessing nobody was nice to them at their house. This dog actually came up to me as I was leaving for my math class and said hi. I pet him for a minute and missed my yorkies. :( I can't wait to have another dog, someday.

*sigh* I don't know what possessed me to take a picture of this, but I do actually like pictures of textbooks. I like to feel studious with my piles of books all around me and notebooks, papers, pencils, paper clips, and various other office-y things -- but as I told Lex this morning, I'm already tired of this semester. Especially math. And you can see (kind of) that that is on the side of my bed, my favorite place to do homework. That's actually where I am right now.
And what I should be doing right now is homework. :( blehhhhhhh. And we're having a math quiz on Thursday. Like, what?! we JUST got our tests back, and you're quizzing us already? Harrrumph. Nicole is very unhappy today.